This weekend we have dealt with many failures. We have dealt with the failures of Baby’s parents. We have dealt with our failures as parents. We have dealt with our children’s failures. We have dealt with our van’s failure to start.
When I say we have dealt. I mean we have DEALT. And sometimes very poorly.
But we have also shared the gospel in as many times. We have shared it with Baby’s parents. We have shared it with each other. We have shared it with our kids. And well, our van is an inanimate object without a soul, but who knows? Maybe Tim can share it with the AAA guy when he finally comes.
Many have told me that I am a saint for taking in a child that is not my own. But I’m not. I’m actually a sinner. And the only thing that is different about me is that I have been saved by the grace of God, and that grace is changing me every darn day.
But today, as I was angry with the failures of Baby’s parents, I was humbled as I knelt before my three year old and before God and asked forgiveness and received grace. I did not react well to a naptime temper tantrum. But conviction was swift, and yet guilt still looms over me as I grieve my sin.
So, when I got the text from Baby’s dad asking forgiveness, I wrote this back. I think maybe you need to see it too: “God’s grace is bigger than our failures. We forgive you. God’s forgiveness is ready for you too. As I parent, I fail too and have to apologize to my children often. We all need Christ’s help to be better parents and people.”
It took me an hour to text him back from the time I received the message. Only until I had been humbled by the Lord and convicted of my own sin was I primed to share the gospel with him.
God wants to use me as a sinner.
We must not wait to serve the Lord until we are perfect, because then we will never serve Him at all.
Anything good that comes from your life is a gift of grace, outside of yourself. So before you say, “I could never do THAT (a,b,c of the mega-holy-Christians you know),” understand that they could never do it either. And they don’t. They are receiving gift after gift of holy living and grace from our Lord Jesus! Thank God for this hope displayed in their lives! God desires to use us sinners!
And the crux of the matter is that despite knowing about this state of sin in my life, He calls me saint! Because when God looks at me He sees the perfect righteousness of Christ! He finds me holy, covered in the blood of the Lamb. Not because I am a Mega-Holy-Christian, but because of Jesus Christ.
Paul write this in Philippians 3:12, “Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own.” We are not perfected yet, but we are Christ's, who is, in fact, perfect! So we live as Christ's own, with great hope and surety that He has victory in our lives over sin.
We are sinners, and yet we are considered saints. It is our job as Christians to clarify that with the Gospel whenever someone calls us saints, and it is also our job to clarify that to ourselves, especially on days when we expect ourselves to be saints but seem to find only the sin.
His grace is sufficient for us. All of us, at all times. We will fight with our sin and the sin of others until Christ comes back. Let’s accept that reality, and also accept the grace that supercedes it.